People don't think a lot about the oldtimes..It is right that we shall live for today and tomorrow. what if tomorrow never comes ? All we have only those times we've been through and today, this moment right now. I'm not being pessimistic here...I love my life, I can't be more thankful for my oldtimes and today. I play my part and judge my self badly if I ever do complaining about it. I did complaining several times but then I would hate it more than ever. Well, it's not easy to be me..

i feel this subject i will bring out is a very oldtime issues...i have to make sure that i won't get bored easily while i'm writing it. i don't mean to make it serious but it has special place in my lifetime. as special as i have to create another blog to make it that way. they are just my other and unknown thoughts..gosh, i never know i could be this 'detailed,deepest thinker' kind of person. i don't think i have a big space of memory, i only have a very strong memory of certain things..that's all. i need to write, it's my other way to speak to my self...i used to write hundred pages of diary, but now it seems cool to have this 'diary on line'..sophisticated indeed..^-^

i need to write..so many things unspoken, unexpressed. i'm not that kind who can say 'no' while in fact i wanna say 'yes' and viseversa. i'd rather choose to keep quite and struggling with my mind nor emotion when i know the others think differently..i need this blog to be my unresponse-able partner. seems silence turns to be my best friend, although outside i'm 'loud' enough to be a person.